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[0:34] Introduction to Episode

Aloha everyone, this is Dr. BethAnne Kapansky Wright, and welcome to Your Heart magic. Today we are talking about Things Your Heart Wants You to Know, Understanding How Your Heart is Speaking to You. And I am so excited about this podcast episode. I know I say that about every single one, I probably always will, I'm probably not gonna make the podcast if I'm not excited.

But this is your heart magic. This is what I decided to call this podcast. And so we're talking about the heart today. I love this topic. It's been a life-changing revolutionary topic for me to truly began a journey of understanding how my heart is speaking to me how I can be in relationship with my heart and understand its wisdom, and how I can learn to lead with more love and live my life in a heart based way. While still working with my intellect and my instincts and my intuition. This is like BethAnne's game changer. So I'm really excited to share the information that has come through for today's podcast.

And I really did open up to multiple channels of information today, in order to bring this information through. Some of what I'm sharing is just based on my own experience, things that I've read things that I've picked up along the way things that I've learned that I have found to be true about living with the intention of our heart and living through our heart. Some of this is from the Akashic records. And I actually open the Akashic records on this topic things your heart wants you to know, understanding how the heart speaks, I think is how I turned it when I open the records. And then some of this was from me, putting my hand on my heart and saying, What am I meant to share today, and also writing down the things that came through and wrapping them up and this nice little package of this podcast.

So let's dive in. With that. I'm so glad everyone is here. And welcome to our new listeners. It's really lovely to have you if you're joining us for the first time.

[2:54] The Current Shift to Heart-Based Consciousness

Right now, this world has been going through a what I would call like a mass opening of our heart chakra. And a few episodes ago, I believe it was episode two where we talked about navigating spiritual awakenings. I made the statement of how the world had been going through this mass spiritual awakening over the past few years, specifically around the time of the pandemic, though it started before that for a lot of people, but I feel like the pandemic is probably one of those historic things that all of us if we were to draw out a personal timeline like that would go somehow on our personal and collective timeline where we would say that was a thing.

And all of our lives changed around the time the Coronavirus became a thing. And our world started going through this, you know kind of mass changes with that. And most people that I talked to have some sort of story of how their life changed at the time. And for many people life slowed down, they had a lot more reflection. Some people lost work, some people got to step back from work and receive some form of pay or compensation at the time because of some of the benefits coming through. Some people were starting one thing and had to completely pivot and go a different direction entirely. I am one of those people. I had just started really grounding my career as a speaker, and had what I considered a very successful speaking event.

In February of 2020, I was so excited I really received this big vision of how I was going to like build this kind of fun pathway to getting my voice out there. Interestingly enough, that big vision and all of that happened around the time of the Leo Full Moon in February of that year and Leo is all about the heart. That was a big heart opening moon, moon and then boom, March comes along and all of a sudden You're quarantined, and I'm not going to be flying or traveling anywhere to speak for a long time. And for me, that's when this great pivot began for me.

And so a lot of people have a lot of stories about that. And on a more serious note, a lot of people have a lot of grief. From that time, there was a lot of loss, there was loss of loved one, there was loss of life, there was loss of job, there's a lot of changes happening. And so for many of us, that is just a point that many of us could agree upon, I would say the bulk of people that we would put it down on a map and say, yes, our world changed at this time.

So it's an easy point in time, if we need to trace it back to when did this big shift began to say, the shift had already begun. But our awareness of it really started to come into consciousness at that time. And this mass spiritual awakening started to happen, because there was a lot of space created during that time. And in that space, in that disruption of daily life and our daily stream of consciousness. We had new space to evaluate, and to assess and to think questions about my going, where I want to go in life, am I living where I want to live, is staying in this career serving me, you know, when we have space, we have to slow down. And we are forced to do a self inventory process. We can try and avoid that and distract. But most of us who would be listening to this podcast, are individuals who are probably showing up for yourself and doing your inner work.

And so you went inward at that time we all did. And think about what happens when you have the majority of the population forced to go and words and forced to evaluate. People need to go into their heart in order to do those things. Even if we are making a decision about something like is this the right job for me? And we're, you know, doing a pro and con list. Somebody might say something like, Well, what do you really want to do? Like what's in your heart to do if you could create anything you want it? Like what lights you up? What excites you? What are you passionate about? Passion is connected to the heart?

Those questions are heart-based questions. They're not necessarily intellectually, what's the most practical thing to do that's going to come with great benefits, a great salary, and a really good retirement package? Those are questions that have to do with our identity and our sense of why am I here and our sense of purpose and a lot of the heart-based topics we've been discussing on this podcast. And so we really have to connect with the intelligence of our heart to find the answers to those questions.

And we talked before about this quote that I said was by the poet Rilke, last time about like being patient with the unanswered questions in your heart. And it's through living the questions that we find our answers. It's not through thinking them through thinking as part of the process, but feeling them and being in the heart. That's the whole package. And so our world began to shift at that time and to a great what I feel like is there's been this big opening of I guess that's the fourth chakra if we want to put it into chakra words, and an opening of our heart chakras.

And that's continuing right now. You don't just like open your heart chakra once and all of a sudden, like that's it, you're forever open. Just like spiritual awakenings can happen multiple times, or we can go through different degrees of an awakening.

Our heart goes through these expansions and contractions, particularly if we've had grief or heartache, or something that was painful that kind of made us pull into ourselves. And so when we are living with our heart and we are working with our heart chakra and we are doing our best to stay open, there's times that we close and I feel like we close so that when we reopen, we bloom even more beautiful than before. So this beautiful sort of expansion contraction, expand some more contract a little bit expand some more, this has been going on and multiple hearts on the planet, all beliefs, all walks of life, all different locations, actually, since human history, but specifically my spiritual sense is it has been extra amplified and a shift in heart based consciousness over the past few years.

So this is a great topic for us to talk about. Because we are being very relevant and very modern day and asking these questions. You know, following our hearts and listening to our heart is not some kind of out there concept. People have got these terminologies that they like to use like woo-woo or airy fairy or hippie-dippie trippy or things like that these funny lay bowls that our guests are supposed to describe stuff that seems out there. And I'm like, No, this is actually like right here in the here. And now, this is not something out there. And if you're like a fairy believer, that's cool, we can be airy-fairy, and practical, and modern, and make these things applicable to living and applying and our day-to-day life.

[10:25] Our Heart's Innate Intelligence

So here we are going through this awakening of heart-based consciousness together, this is going to be experience for us in different ways. And we all figure out how to navigate us as best as we know how. I mean, something that's really cool about the heart, is there's been a lot of talk about it in recent years. And I, when I began my own journey of really working with the heart, it didn't come at all from a scientific place, it didn't come from a place of reading something and thinking, oh, I want to be more heart based. I've shared my story on here and little bits and pieces.

And it basically came from going through a very painful divorce and subsequent spiritual awakening back in 2011, and really listening to my heart and connecting to this intelligence inside me. And I knew there was something very real about it at the time, because I changed so dramatically, my life changed so dramatically. How I looked at the world changed dramatically. My spiritual gifts open and abundance, and everything was so different, like this light had come in. And I was living in this joy and living in this light and living in this new space of awareness. And so just from my intuition, I knew there was something there that had to do with living by the heart.

And you don't really have to explain this concept to people. If you say to somebody, what is your heart say? Often they'll surprise you. I remember once I was getting like an Uber ride or something from some van driver, when I was at a conference in California. And they were driving me back to the airport. And he asked me what I've been speaking on. And it was about like awakened hearts and like the consciousness of the heart. And if somebody's very different than me, I don't remember anything about him. Except this is probably not somebody that I would ever go sit and see, like in a meditation circle, probably not going to be at a full moon ceremony, probably won't be listening to this podcast.

And he said to me very seriously, yes. But like, how do I learn to listen to my heart? You know, how do I learn to like, get into my heart. And he was very sincere. And he went on to tell me some stuff happening with a family member and that he had this pain in his heart, and that he didn't know how to listen to his heart.

So we have this very just normal day-to-day conversation, I didn't need to scientifically prove to him that heart intelligence exist, he already knew the truth, because he was just listening to himself. So we innately know the truth of this already. But if you're somebody who loves knowledge, and you want to know a little bit more about it, many people have already heard of heart math.org, I'll put the link down in my resources.

And they started doing all this wonderful research years ago, where they really talked about how the electromagnetic field of the heart is, like, it's like three times stronger, and might be more than that, like 98%, stronger or something like that, then the brain - I apologize for not having my numbers exactly right! But you know, in essence, to sum it up, it's stronger than the mind. And so they really started examining this idea that like, our heart is this more intelligent organ that has an intelligence all of its own, it is stronger than the mind. (*edited to add: according to HeartMath, the heart’s electrical field is about 60 times greater in amplitude than the electrical activity generated by the brain. )

And I think I ran across HeartMath if I hadn't found them online, I remember I was reading the book, Living in a mindful universe by Eben Alexander MD, who wrote some a couple of great books. Last I read his work on having this, you know, amazing experience near death experience. And it really changed him as a neurosurgeon and a doctor. And he went on to want to learn more about spirituality and intelligence. And he mentioned our intelligence and Heart Math and his book.

And I remember stumbling across that and about 2018. And I was like, Yeah, this was exactly what I've been thinking and living by all these years. You know, thank you, somebody, for validating it. And they're doing all this great work around heart coherence and getting into our hearts and like leading more heart-based and putting really good language to it.

And I'm really appreciative of those who are taking heart-based work and grounding in in a way that makes it feel more approachable and measurable, because sometimes our mind can be skeptical and we have a hard time buying into something that we can't ground into some sort of vocabulary or terminology. And that's one of the gaps between spirit and science right now, I think is that often in spirituality, we have these experiences, and we feel like they're true, but they're really experience based.

And so faith and our experience of the divine and the mysteries, and if somebody says, I'm, I've said it, I've had communication with angelic beings, well, how do I prove that to you? How can you measure that, you know, maybe we could hook me up to a brain scan and those moments and somebody would say, Well, her brain is doing this. And maybe somehow this shows that something's happening in my neural activity. But so much of our experiences can't be broken down and proven like that.

And so it makes it really hard sometimes for us to take a spiritual experience, that when you're the one going through it, it's life-changing this profoundly altering, and you know, there's truth there. And then you turn around and try and tell it to somebody, you don't have the language for it, it feels really one dimensional, right? In experience, it's not even just three-dimensional. It's like living inside of the story. And you're the main character, and it loses something.

So sometimes things get lost in translation when we're trying to translate spirit, into language, and into ways that our brains can grasp. But our heart knows that the truth is there. And when I think about people who are like, prove it to me, I'm so glad that there's research and there's things being done out there. But all I can think, is try and tell somebody who's just lost a loved one. And they're going through grief, that their mind is stronger than their heart and that moment.

Yeah, you can't think your way through grief. You can't logically say it's been three months, I shouldn't be feeling this way anymore. My heartbreak should be gone, they're gone, they moved on to a better place. So my mind is going to rationally tell my heart, stop feeling these things that you're feeling, you know, all we need to do to know that there's truth and heart wisdom. And what our heart is trying to let us know is to think about an experience that we've had, where we've suffered some kind of heartbreak or maybe even falling in love. And if you tell me that the mind is stronger than that, you know, tell that to a grieving person. Our heart has a wisdom and an intelligence all of its own.

And when I opened up all this information today on like, what is our heart want us to know, it's like make a case for me. You know, like, let's make a case for the heart here about why this is so important. Because our heart has this incredible profound intelligence to it. And we're not really taught how to listen to it.

So we are really missing out on a very vital part of information in our own somatic system, our own body, and our heart holds the ability to inform our mind and really help us take action and have thoughts that line up with our own sense of alignment, our own sense of spirit, our own sense of soul calling and purpose. And so if we're not accessing that, and we're just staying in the mind, and somehow we think that our thoughts are who we are, or we're spending on something, and we are not figuring out a way to say, well, how does my heart feel about this? What does my heart want need to know, like we're missing out on like the Earth, it's like three-quarters water, like three-quarters of our intelligence, I made that number up three quarters. I don't know what it is. But it's like cutting off if we were to do a pie chart on here's all these ways intelligence and information presents itself to us. And we didn't include the heart, you're missing probably the biggest slice of pie on that chart.

[18:59] The Heart As a Portal

And that brings me to my next point of what I want to talk about with the heart. And that is our heart is a portal, and is a doorway and a gateway that has the ability to help us move into our intuitive self. Our heart helps us move into our inner world. I use the term portal a lot. And portal can mean many things where a portal is just something that you step through, and it turns like transports you to a different world.

And so the heart can be a portal to our inner world. It can be a portal to our relationship with spirit, and our experiences with spirit. It can be a portal to connecting with a loved one after loss. If we can really get in our heart and getting our love for them. That's often when we can feel the presence of a loved one, or at least put out there I really miss you. Could I have a sign that you're close by? And usually within 24 hours? If not Sooner some sort of sign shows up, we see a cardinal sitting on the fence right outside the window. Not that long after we prayed that, I find pennies a lot, I've got a whole story around my brother Brent and Brent pennies, I've written about this in a couple of my books. So I'll find pennies a lot. When I'm like, like, bro, I need to know that you're still around, like I'm drowning down here, I need a little bit of like, spirit, love from the Big Brother, I will find pennies a lot. But that's all come through the heart, you know.

So our heart is this portal to a lot of different information. And when we can get into our heart, we can access that information. And when we can, the way that I think about this is like if the heart is at the center of the wheel, the spokes of the wheel, there's all these different offshoots of it right?

And so we can use our heart to try and move into these different understandings in these different awarenesses. When I open the Akashic Records, the Akashic records are kept at the frequency of unconditional love. You can't really think your way into the records, even though you use the intention of the mind, and words to say a prayer to set your intention to go into the records when I was learning to work with the Akashic records, and I was self taught the stories back and understanding the light of the Akashic records, if you haven't tuned into that episode, you know, but I was self taught just based on observation and getting readings. And then I learned how to do it on my own, I went in through the heart. And even today, before I hopped on to make this audio, I have a little ritual that I do where I call in some angels, and I call in some energy. And I say open our hearts to the information that wants to come through.

But a lot of my channeling it comes through the heart, like it literally feels to me like my heart is kind of a little bit of a walkie talkie, tuning into different energies. And sometimes it will receive a message and I will feel this vibration, that it often for me happens like in my heart chakra at my back, my heart might feel like it's glowing, it might feel like it's vibrating, it might feel like it's resonating, it might feel like it's humming or singing music, I will get a sensation in my heart.

And a lot of times I'll hear a thread of a word in my head. And that's usually when I go sit down in front of my computer or I go grab a pen and paper if I have time. Because that's how I will bring a message through as I have to write it out or type it out. If I'm speaking with somebody and giving a reading, then I will speak it out. But if it is just for me coming through, and I'm not reading for anybody, I write it out. But it's all coming through the heart.

So I don't when people have asked me before, Are You Psychic? Sure. I mean, if that word means do I pick up on, you know, sort of this phenomenon that I'm perceiving through my senses and perceiving psychic information on an energetic way. Okay, why not?

But you know, a better way that I think about myself is really more of like a heart-based, heart-based transmissions that my work is really heart based. And so much of what I feel is through my heart. So our heart is a portal, I did not grow up with the gift of talking to the angels, I do not have a story where I was a psychic from I was sensitive a kid or something like that I was an empath, that story I can tell you.

But I didn't have some of the gifts that other people in my field, she might have intuitive gifts hard. And they say oh, it was always with me. And I was scared of it. And I shut it down and I disowned that part of myself. And like, that's not my story. My story is going through a spiritual awakening, learning to work with my heart, learning to open my heart, learning how to use the intelligence in my heart and value that more than the thoughts in my mind. And through that process and following my heart and literally following what lights me up, and what calls to me.

My gifts grew through that. So everything that I know to share in this podcast and to teach you that's come through my direct experience base. It's been heart based, which is one of the reasons I teach about your heart magic. And everything that I mentioned when I said the heart is a portal to our intuition, to our inner world, to our loved ones, to spirit.

All of those things have lessons for me there that helped grow who I am not just as a person, but they grew my heart and grew my spiritual gifts, even grief. And we are going to talk about a little bit later. What happens if your hearts really closed right now because you're in grief. I've got you covered today. So if you are that right now and you're listening to this, there is zero pressure on you right now. We're just all holding space for you. Whoever's going through that you do not force your heart to be somewhere that it's not It'll come in time. And we're going to talk a little bit about how you can work with that aspect of yourself if you're in a closed state because you're in grief or heartbreak.

[25:08] How Does Our Heart Speak to Us?

So moving on, how does our heart speak to us? I love this topic because the heart is so creative. So the heart doesn't necessarily speak through rational thought and logic, where it's strange this all together, the heart speaks through images, and it speaks through resonance and energy, it speaks through music and colors.

It speaks through very simple messages that we might be getting over and over. Like, we might hear a phrase. Sometimes when I said earlier, that poem that just touches me so much about staying patient with what's unsolved in your heart, and just staying with the questions because we find the answers to be living, that quote, spoke to my heart. That's not a rational quote that was written by a poet, poets, usually right from the heart, they're tapping into our emotional center.

And it spoke to something and me because at the time in 2011, when those words were so meaningful to me, I was really had a lot of mysteries in my heart, and I didn't know where it was going to go. So it spoke to me on a heart level. So our art, and beauty and creativity and music, and all of those things are ways that the heart speaks, the heart can speak through nature.

The best way that I have to describe this because I feel like I'm trying to take something that's experiential, and like, grounded into terminology to give us all an all an idea, like, here's how your heart magic and wisdom might show up. There is a huge experiential component of this. And I'm going to draw a parallel between how hearts like give us information, and what happens in the Akashic records.

So my understanding of the Akashic records is that when I tell people, what are they we talk about them, like a library a lot, you know, it's a great metaphor. This is a symbol for what the records are that it's like this great energetic database, or it's a library that you can go into you pull a book on a topic off the shelf, and you can see what's been written in that book, through your intention and will and open heart and having the right intention. Or it's like a big computer, you know, and so we're going to do a Google search on little Akashic search on understanding how your heart speaks, and I access that information.

But my true understanding of the Akashic records is that the information is really coded and more of an experiential way. And it's the difference between opening a book and reading a book on I live on the island of kawaii I can sit here on this podcast, and I can tell you what it's like to live on the island of kawaii. If you've traveled over here on vacation, you have a sense of maybe what life on Kauai is like, but you actually have to live here to truly understand the paradoxes of life living on an island.

And I've been here six years now, there are some things I still don't know, I haven't been here long enough. And so I will not pretend to be an expert, especially on a land that is so strongly tied to Native Hawaiians. I want to be really mindful that I don't overstep here. But in my own experience, you actually have to live here. And you have to live here for longer than like, oh, I went there and stayed on the island for two months. And I went through this intense healing and oh my gosh, I love Hawaii. So much, Kauai is just in my heart. Like, you have to know what it's like to sit in traffic to get to Costco and Louis from the North Shore and how it becomes this like four hour round trip and like going to Costco to get groceries and stuff like that. Like it's a thing. Like you have to know what it's like to live here in this very normal way.

And so what if, instead of me sitting here and telling you, here's exactly what it's like and spending an hour telling you a story about life on kawaii? What if I could take all of that and create an experience something intangible, and like let's just say I put the energy of my experience and kawaii into something intangible that you can't see. Let's pretend it's like an energy bomb, a little light ball that I'm going to throw at you. And you say to me, what's it like to live on Kauai? What is your personal experience,BethAnne.

And instead of telling you I just take the civil energy ball and in that energy ball, I've encoded my experience, how I felt thoughts that I've had living here, the things I love about it, the things I don't love about it, what it's like to wake up and be able to go down to the ocean, what it's like to see some of the infrastructure challenges that we have here. What it's been like to try and move my voice in a global way from like the smallest Island. At least that's well populated, you know, over here on the islands, what if I just put all of that and I just handed you this ball of energy, and you were able just to like, take it into your heart.

And in that moment, you just felt it all. You knew exactly what it was like to be me living on this island for six years, she felt every up and down. Every beautiful thing, everything that's made me cry, everything that's made me like pump my best for joy, every moment in between every moment of mundane life where it's like still life, like it might be an exotic island, but it doesn't stop real life from happening. And you just kind of knew in that moment exactly what it was like to have my experience living on the island. And it's not your experience. So you don't really keep that you keep the residual of it, you keep the impression of it. If you want specific information on one of those things. You say specifically, oh, that's kind of interesting to me, I'd like to know more about this point in time for BethAnne. And what she experienced then, and so you ask that question, and that experience becomes amplified.

That's the Akashic records. That's the best way I can truly describe them to you. It's like being in the experience, and being able to amplify parts of those experience.

[31:22] The Heart is Experience Based

And that is how our heart speaks to us. It's experience based. And it's why when our heart tells us something, it's so powerful, because in that moment, we are feeling it in this like multi dimensional 56789 D, I don't know, I know, there's all seems to be all these different dimensions, I can't pretend I understand what they all mean, we'll say this five D reality, it's immersive. And you just know something.

And so if you've ever made a heart based choice, and you knew that this relationship was no longer for you, or you couldn't do this job another second, or you were being told in your heart to go do this thing, or you did something and it shocked you, it's sort of out of character, but your heart moves you to do it. It's because in that moment, you had this multi dimensional, multifaceted intelligence, informing you and telling you this here in this point in time is your truth.

And if we're really dialed in, we almost have no choice. But to follow it. Like if we resist it, it actually makes it so hard on us. And then our heart is kind of like, if you've ever seen the movie Ghost, where Sam is trying to get Whoopi Goldberg's character to let him know that he is alive. And that he wants her to give a message to Molly and she's like, I don't want to listen. And so he just sits there singing like, you know, Sam are Henry the Eighth, I am I am second verse, same as the first like, over and over and over again, that's like kind of our heart when we're not getting it. Like, okay, you didn't get me the first time. Second verse, same as the first, you chose to ignore me again. All right, third verse, same as the first, it's like this thing on repeat, and the signs and the messages.

And all of that will keep showing up in our life over and over again, and it will feel so strong. That we won't be like, is this a sign from spirit and I'm missing it, we will know the right thing to do. There has been things in my life where in my heart, I knew the right thing to do that I wasn't ready quite yet to do that right thing. And so I kind of like blocked that. And it's not like my heart was ever like, that's cool that they can go ahead and block me like it just kept letting me know. And finally I moved around to a place of being like, I don't think I want to ignore this any longer. Because I'm kind of afraid of what's gonna happen if I don't pay attention to it.

Our hearts not shaming our heart is not mean our hearts not cruel. So if you've heard me say that, and you've had this, oh, no, I have this thing and you reacted in fear. That's probably not your heart. It's more like our heart is this wise-- wise guide. And if we choose to ignore it, it's not going to cruelly tell it to us. Again. It's more like a fairy godmother or Jiminy Cricket in Pinocchio, where it's just gonna be like, alright, if you don't want to listen, I'm just gonna keep telling you. And I'm probably gonna say it a little bit stronger. But learn the lesson if you need to learn the lesson again if you need to. And if you need it a third time learn it again. Like there's not a cruelty there.

Even if our heart tells us a hard truth, like years ago when I had this when I went through my divorce, and I could feel in my heart like you can't stay here. And I had a vision at the time a clear vision of what would happen if I stayed in that relationship not just to me, but to them that we would both kind of be like plants or something in a garden not meant to keep growing together and instead of blossoming into our full abundance, we would choke each other out. And neither one bloom and to our fullest fruition.

My heart didn't cruelly tell me that. And even though it meant I had very hard choices to make, and I walked a very hard road, I've mentioned that story on here before, I don't know that I've actually ever told it in full. I had a friend mentioned it to me the other day where she really didn't know how bad my divorce was. And what happened. And I realized, I don't think I've ever really told it other than glossing over it. So perhaps for another time.

But what I can tell you at the time is I was very listening to like the wisdom in my heart, and it was hard wisdom, like I did not like that wisdom coming through. And I felt absolutely compelled to follow it. And there was no cruelty on it. There was love there, and there was kindness there and there was a gentleness there. And so our hearts not cruel. So if it makes you fearful, it's not coming from your heart. That's just the mind. And that's our old programming, the heart is loving. So even if it's hard, there's still a softness, or a wisdom or compassion to it.

[36:17] The Heart's Ability to Transform All Experiences for Our Highest Good

Moving on, let's see. Ah, this actually segues really nicely into what my next talking point was going to be. There's always a compassion to the heart, and it knows how to take any experience and use it for our highest growth. So I am loving the spirit of wisdom, it's a little bit new to me. This comes from the Akashic records. And when I open the Akashic records on this heart, this this topic yesterday, I'm used to seeing an image when I open a topic, it's how I know I'm anchored into the record itself, and I'm anchored into the experience or receive some sort of an image that kind of metaphorically or symbolically represents the topic.

And this is a new one for me that I'd never quite seen like this before. What I saw was like a big palette or screen, or almost like a cosmic painting going on. It wasn't, it wasn't as one dimensional as an artist at a palette. I saw it more against the starry sky. But I saw all these colors. And these colors were swirling, and they were creating new pictures every day. And they were blending with each other. And they were alkalizing to create new colors. And when a color came in, that might not be the most cheerful color, I love color. I usually don't wear the color, dark gray doesn't look that great on me. And for me, gray feels a little bit too somber.

Now, there's nothing wrong with gray. If you love Gray, it's also a beautiful color. And it's the color of pewter and silver and clouds and the rain that's going on outside right now, it's actually a great color, it's just not so much in my palette, I kind of tend to dress a little bit like a rainbow.

So gray for me might represent having a gray mood. And I saw like the gray being taken and just beautifully being woven into this gorgeous rainbow of all these colors. And that gray kind of taking on a shimmer and an essence to it. And what was coming through and the records at that time is that our heart has the ability to alchemize any experience, any feeling state, anything that feels ugly, anything that we judge about ourselves in our life, and it will take it and it will make something beautiful about it if we trust the process.

And so often what happens is we block our own hearts because we don't let our feelings flow. I did this recently, I was really mad about something. And a friend called me on it and was like, I feel like you're lying right now. Like you're saying it's fine. And it's not like I can feel it in your throat chakra. It's closing up. I know, oh my god, she was so right. Like, I didn't even want to admit it. And I like how to do like little BethAnne work and go back to my journal and kind of do this, I'm really angry. And if it's helpful to you and you're really mad, and you want to do something constructive with it, you can write about it, you can paint it out, you can take crayons, and you can make the colors of what mad looks like to you.

For me, I drew a big old circle and I just wrote out like the messy feelings inside of it just to get a layer of it off. It helps so much with processing it. And I was blocking my own process because I wasn't listening to this part of me that felt angry, and I was blocking my heart through blocking my anger. We don't have to be destructive with the feeling state. We can work with them constructively. And the minute I did that, I felt like this flow come through in my heart. And I felt this sense of my heart wants to do something constructive or transformative with that anger. It's not going to let it sit there in the sad angry lump and be this thing and that kind of blocks mine BethAnne Heart magic, it's going to take it into that giant little cosmic palette of artistry. And it's going to start weaving it up. And all I had to do was surrender to my heart and feel the feeling and create space for it.

And I worked with my heart where I will say, I do you not know what to do with this, but I trust you to work on healing it. So I'm just going to send the energy of love to this part of myself, I'm going to let my heart take over here. And I'm going to let my heart draw into me, through its electromagnetic field through its magnetism, all forms of support and energy and inspiration, and ideas and spiritual insight that I need to process that in a way that truly serves my journey and my highest good.

So your heart wants you to know, nothing's too big for it. And remember, your heart is the portal that connects you to spirit. When we talk about like the light of spirit, the light of the mysteries, the light, that of the Divine that's inside of us, like we access that through the heart. So a nice way to think about it as your heart, your divine hookup.

So another way of saying nothing is too big for your heart is actually like nothing's too big for spirit, spirits neutral spirit doesn't judge our feelings. Spirit doesn't say you're being punished, because you're really mad today. Spirit actually wants us to like flow and talk and like, be open and like engage in our spiritual connection, and just say, here's where I'm at. And I feel like that work for me starts with just being in my heart and letting my heart fill where it's at.

So nothing's too big for your heart. And your heart has the ability to alchemize and transform all of these things. And I talk about colors a lot. And if you're not using creativity, or some sort of color to work with your heart, you might consider that because colors are something where I think the heart really like vibrates and resonates with those frequencies and those vibrations. And so they're a really powerful way to work with like the colors of our heart and to work with that information. In a way that's not so logical. And I really love how all this is flowing together today, because this actually brings me into my next point.

[42:22] Moving From Our Head to Our Heart

And that is how do we move from our head to our heart? Like how do we like get from that really logical place and get to that experience, place where our truth is found where our, really our living waters found our connection to just all that is it's found in the hardest not in the head.

So how do we get there? I think that there's no right answer to this, we get to be really creative. But what I can say is that you can't really think your way into your heart. If you're trying to rationalize your way into your heart. It's kind of like it's, you know, makes me think about some of the passages from different different religious backgrounds, different scriptures, but a lot of times they talk about, kind of like entering heaven, and how I'm thinking about this passage that I think is more from like the Judeo Christian faith, I believe Christianity, but it kind of talks about like getting through the heaven is like, like squeezing through the eye of a needle.

And you know, in our connection to all of those things, or connection to the divine or connection to creating some form of divine on this planet, it's through the heart. Like if we're, if you want to think of us as the hands of God, if you don't like that term, the hands of spirit, the hands of love the hands of life, whatever represents that to you. It's us. It's us, and it's our light. And so the way that we connect, and bridge the divine into the tangible is through the heart.

So you can't think your way into it. That's why it's so hard and why I feel this is just my personal opinion. But I feel that's what a lot of those Proverbs where they talk about, it's hard to gain entrance. Like that's what I feel. They mean, not like it's so hard because you have to be perfect or do all this stuff or do this certain thing. I think it was just spirit knowing it's that hard to move from the rational mind into your heart.

You can't think your way into it. You have to feel you have to listen to music. Music moves us. That's why so many of us love it. Even people who might not be heart based, might need people who are music lovers that's their way into their heart. We have to color it. We have to be creative. We have to do something like draw a map of your heart. How fun does that sound? Sit down in your journal and map out your heart. Map out your inner world.

We get creative our creativity is when we're in more the creative brain and the nonlinear brain. And for people who are already creative, this may or may not come easier. But if you're really creative and you've done aren't for a long time and you've kind of got a system to it, you know, the way into the heart is not like a system, it's kind of messy, like take out some finger paints, and finger paint for a while.

And years ago, I remember getting Akashic readings from the woman who used to do mine. And I remember something that came up and reading once, and it was like that I should finger paint, or I should play more. And it was like, Don't make this like a should, like, don't like don't make this like some cuz, you know, your Spirit knew me really well. And they knew that if you tell BethAnne, you need to do this, that I would be like that that needs to play. And I'll put it down on my list. And I'll carve out an hour where I think I have to go play kind of is paradoxical to like, what the concept of plays.

So at the time, it was like, let it be messy, like, Don't overthink this, it can be two to five minutes, draw like a heart with a stick in the snow, I used to love to do that, you know, paint or rock, do finger painting, let it be messy. And that's because the hearts process is a little bit more chaotic, a little bit more messy. It's helping us move into a part of our brain that's not always trying to organize everything, but can just be in the flow of experience. So that's the kind of stuff that we want to think about when we talk about moving from our head into our heart.

[46:17] Building A Relationship With Our Heart

And having said that, the other thing that we need to do, actually, there's a lot of things, these are just when I say this, these are just the talking points I wrote down for today. But the next thing is we need to build a relationship with our heart. So if you already have a relationship with your heart, awesome head of the curve, but if you are saying, well, I really want to move from my head to my heart, and I want to get to know this part of me more. Think about it in terms of a relationship, that you are in a relationship with all the things that make up who you are, you're in a relationship with your intellect, you're in a relationship with your physicality and your body.

You're in a relationship with your heart and your hearts intelligence. And you're in a relationship with the world around you. The collective the people in your life, you're in a relationship with mother earth, you're living on her. So whether or not you know it, you're automatically in a relationship with her. So you're in a relationship with your heart. And we have to be intentional about investing in that relationship.

So if somebody says to somebody who never thinks about what their heart says, what what does your heart tell you? And they're like, I don't know, that's not very shocking to me. I mean, they might know the hearts pretty strong. So if we actually just listen to it, sometimes even if you're not used to that, you might already innately have a sense. But if you're really trying to discern and develop new ones, then we have to invest in the relationship, we don't just get to automatically have a great relationship with our heart because it's in us like we actually have to learn the language of it, we have to learn to tune in and this doesn't need to feel like work.

It's more like Yay, I get to spend more time with my heart. Because I spend a lot of time learning, studying, doing being productive. I mean, literally just take a moment reflect on how you spent your time growing your personhood in your lifetime. And most of us spend a lot of time in our mind, we go to school, we learn stuff, we spit it back out and regurgitate it and take these tasks and show that we memorized it. Or maybe we've learned it comprehensively. And we can create an essay that we've done our research, I mean, all of that's like so much on the mind. So our heart, we just have to spend time with it.

And that's where self love and being in relationship with ourself and creating space for our heart really comes through. And that's why we do things like journal or go sit in nature or color. Or just ask our heart. I do a lot of very simple guided meditation, of putting your hand in your heart. And I do this in my client work a lot asking people what color's your heart today? And like just listening to the heart? Or what image does your heart give you?

Sometimes if I do guided meditations for group, you know, we'll do the hands on the heart. And I might do use imagination while we're connecting with our heart to say, you know, what animal guide shows up today? What does your heart want you to know that you're meant to connect with just listen to your imagination and let that guide you and know that that's your heart, using your imagination to inform you.
 
There's all these ways that we get into it, but we have to spend time and be in relationship with it. And then another great way to build a relationship with their heart is do the things that light us up. Like if it makes your heart happy, and makes you feel like glowing inside or excited or kind of passionate, or something about it is enticing to you or fun or joyful to you, then that's probably the stuff that's going to help you just get connected to your heart chakra and get connected to your heart.

And this kind of weaves back to this idea of being told to like finger paint but Don't be messy go play but not to overthink it. Like when we're being playful, we tend to be on our heart. Like if we can override our like very serious adult brain, sometimes they'll be like, Why are you doing this, you're not being productive, you're wasting time. And we can actually just like be in the moment, our heart kind of takes over and our heart and neatly is really curious and is drawn to joy in play.

So a lot of times like that right there helps us be able to get into those heart-based energies. And if you're somebody who likes that stuff, and you like it with a twist, you know, like some people who they are meant to be in this word, their authentic self is a little bit of a rebel, like it's sort of a rainbow, they'd rather wear black. They'd rather like I said, I gray is not my color. And they're like, gray is my favorite color BethAnne, like I love gray. And I love being a little bit of a like contrarian and society. And I'm drawn to things that are a little bit subversive, or something that is just a little bit out there.

Like do you do your heart? This is not like Dr. BethAnne's heart magic and telling you what my heart magic is. And you have to be like this. This is your heart magic. And if your heart magic is drawn to something that is different than other people like then it will serve you well to be your authentic self and learn about you and learn why you're drawn to that. And allow yourself the curiosity to explore it. And see like what happens when you move towards what light your hearts up? Light? Yeah, light your heart up.

There's not one way to do this, do it in your own way. Make your own alchemy, but put your own twist on it.

[51:46] How to Support Your Heart in Grief

All right, I promised that I would talk about what do we do if our heart is closed or heartbroken and in so I want to reserve a little bit of time before we wrap up today to address that. When we go through grief, it's interesting. Because in some ways, our heart is almost never more open than when we're grieving. And yet it's feels really wounded and can feel really closed. A lot of times our hearts not open to joy. If we're going through profound grief, not that we can't feel joy, sometimes laughter or having like a break is what we need, and our heart can receive that. But a lot of times like it's just not there. And we might feel really shut down.

Like I have often said when I lost Brent, and use the analogy that I felt like half of meat was frozen, or like a lung had been ripped out, like some part of me was missing. And some part of me just felt like shut down and frozen inside. Like I was a frozen lake and Alaska in the winter and negative 15 temperature. And summer under that lake. I knew the water was still there. I knew eventually it would thaw and it would be summer time and ducks would swim on the lake and people would stop ice skating on me and instead like just enjoy my beautiful likeness. You know, I knew that the water would flow again.

But I mean, I just felt really shut down. I would not say that was a time in my life that my heart was like open to many things. It was open to grief. And it was open to death. And it was open to learning these really hard lessons very house 12 stuff on astrology, if you're at all into what the house is mean, sort of the mysteries what's behind that veil, and I really needed to understand what death was, and what it was to, like physically lose my brother in order to finally reengage in life again.

So when we're in that place, how do we choose the light? How do we stay in our heart while you're already in your heart? Because grief is such an intuitive process like you're already in your heart. So make space for it. Whether you write draw, watch, I needed to watch all these sad movies. I remember watching like Titanic and natural disaster movies and movies where people died. And be like, yes, yeah, that's like my heart needed that like I'm listening to Celine Dion saying My heart will go on and on.

Like I needed all of that. That might not be your process. I needed it. Like I needed I made like a sad song list and I wasn't trying to revel in it. I was just trying to receive it. And I remember doing things like taking a hot bath and a cold winter's night I was still in Alaska at the time. And just kind of picturing like my heart was being like poured into by spirit. I pictured like beautiful starry energy just being poured into me. You know, because I needed to receive like my heart wasn't really open to giving and like doing a lot, but it was open to receiving healing.

So set the intention. I open to receive healing and whatever my way my heart knows is best for me. Very simple. Do that. And if you feel like you need to cry mollify, say, and just to warn you, I'm very tender right now. So please make the healing gentle, help it be soothing, help it feel like aloe to my heart, I don't think I can handle more than that. Be clear about your intention with what you need. And just open to this idea of receptivity.

[55:19] Nature as a Gateway to the Heart

Something else you can do is just go be in nature or be close to nature. Because nature, intuitively and innately opens our heart, when we're in nature, we begin to sync with that energy, sync with nature's resonance, nature's lessons.

So we don't have to work to try and open ourselves up, we can just like receive from nature. That's a beautiful way to work with heart energy, and to just let yourself be exactly where you're at, and trust nature to do the work for you. And then the other thing that I want to say, and I kind of touched on this already, is, if you truly feel ready, and say, I'm ready to heal my heart and open it up again, ask for it. Ask for it. If you say my heart's been closed long enough, I'm ready to heal. And I want to open back up again, I don't feel open right now.

Just ask for it pray to or set the intention to whatever your understanding is of the mysteries. I did this years ago, and I actually used a pink, I think calcite crystal, I think pink Calcite is what it's called. And I think I read somewhere it was a heart healing crystal. And I put it under my pillow.

And it came into my attention about six months after my divorce that I was like, actually, like, really in deep grief. It's almost like I've been through the worst of it. And the divorce had passed, and my life was finally looked like it was gonna get good again. And then the grief hit even worse. And it's like, psychologically, my defenses were down. And I didn't have to be in survival change mode. And so it's like, my grief was like, hey, all of this unprocessed stuff. I'm here. Now it's time to process me.

So it was really unexpected. And I felt really numb inside. Inside, put this pink crystal under my pillow. And I just said this very sincere prayer at the time, I didn't even know what I believed anymore. And I was like, Well, whoever, whatever's out there, I want a sense of connection. Again, I want my heart to open back up and I asked for healing. That is a whole other story. What happened next. But I got my healing. And I got a profound spiritual experience that came in through all of that over the next few weeks, it worked.

So just put the intention out there. And I'll just set the intention today that if you're in that space that this podcast feels like medicine for the heart for you, and you already received it, we're open to listening and you stayed with me to the end. So you had your medicine, do nothing. Be well, and take good care of yourself and know that your heart is also self healing. And it will help you open back up in time you do not need to know what your grief is meant, or you don't need to know what to do with your grief. You don't need to know how it's meant to transform you. You don't need any of that stuff. Trust your heart to alchemize it and to help see you through that process. All right. With that we are concluding today's episode of Your Heart magic.

[58:29] Coming Up Next Week

Next week. Our topic is Akashic Wild Card. So I'm going to do a wild card week where I will be opening the Akashic records up on a topic of my choice. And the future. I'm really thinking about having listeners, send an email and say these are things I might be interested in. And but for now, I'm just going to see what presents itself to me this week, though, if you're listening to this, and you would like to do that please feel free. 

I've got a contact form, I believe a link to it in the resource section in my bio like underneath the podcast and you're welcome to say hello or to say, here's a topic I would be interested in knowing more about, I can't guarantee that I will do it. But I'm always open to feedback and to trying to weave it in somehow to the podcast when I can as I feel led to do so stay tuned. But I will be opening the Akashic records on some form of a topic that is relevant to our life today. And we'll see what comes through with that. 

And until then, have a fabulous beautiful week and be well. Be in love, be you and the magic.